If ever I ask him to get dressed nicely, that's what he wants to wear!
Only one more official day of summer holidays, and I am looking forward to chillaxing (that's right, people still use the word "chillaxing") with my favorite boy tomorrow. I think we will be heading to the nearest metropolitan center (population 5500 -- almost) to do some groceries and hopefully, swim. We'll hit BP's for dinner and maybe come home and paint. Who knows? Whatever. It doesn't matter what we do. It's about spending the day together, giving him all my attention 100% of the time.
Jonah's dad and his girlfriend came up to see Jonah this afternoon. It's always tough when he leaves. Jonah gets so blue, and bedtime is always rough. But I laid with him, just singing the same song over and over until his eyes fluttered and closed, and I thought of my little girl in a belly across the world and I can't wait. Being a mother is what I love. I was made for it. I never thought I could see myself as a stay at home mom, but if I could pull it off, I would love it.
I read this great blog today and was totally touched. The one thing I can't relate to is the infertility. But there was a part where she says, (about people they knew looking at the couple's decision to adopt) "They didn’t quite understand why we were 'giving up on having our own.' " I do understand that. As a single, I do worry at times that being a single mother of a multiracial family might scare off potential suitors (do we still have suitors, in these modern times?), but it's not really giving up. I think those who are adopting (for whatever reason) are empowered. There is a goal (to be parents) and there is a solution. I don't (often) feel like I'm broken because I'm (perhaps terminally) single. I feel like a gal who knows what she wants and is going to get it. I have started being more open with people about the fact that I am adopting. Some people (usually moms of toddlers) think I am crazy. But the general reaction is one of support. Paperwork may have ground to a disappointing halt, but the end result of this will always be my girl. I can take solace in that.