Major Adoption-Related Events

  • 09-04-29 Part One Sponsorship Application Completed and Sent
  • 08-11-04 Dossier in Ethiopia -- the wait begins
  • 08-10-24 Dossier on its way to Ethiopia
  • 08-10-23 Dossier back to Imagine
  • 08-10-17 Dossier to Ottawa
  • 08-10-07 Dossier (finally complete) at Imagine
  • 08-09-10 Dossier (most) Sent to Imagine
  • 08-09-04 Provincial Approval Received
  • 08-07-08 Completed Dossier Sent to Province for Approval
  • 08-06-26 HAR Signed and sent back to ABC
  • 08-05-16 HAR Started
  • 08-04-22 Int'l Adoption Self-Study Course Completed
  • 08-04-07 Application sent to ABC
  • 08-02-19 Initial Application faxed to Imagine
  • 08-02-16 References Requested from Friends

Tuesday, July 28, 2009


You know, I can be a naturally guilty sort of person. It's not that I think things revolve around me, but sometimes I wonder if things happen in this world because of me. You know the story of Jonah? How God told him to go to Nineveh and tell the people of Him? And instead he went to Tarshish via boat. And then the storm came up and everyone prayed to their gods except Jonah who was trying to hide from his God, and he realized the storm was because of him. That the others just needed to toss him overboard and the storm would calm. And it did.
Well, I had honestly been wondering if what happened with Imagine may have been because I wasn't listening to God well enough. That because I felt Him calling me to missions or fostering or whatever, and my response was, "Just wait. I need a few more months or a couple of years," maybe He got tired of me ignoring Him. And so he took that which put my life on hold and shook it up like a storm. I know that this may sound crazy to some, and if it does, don't comment please. But I've been wondering if I just leave my girl behind me and do those things, maybe the storm will settle. I really don't want to though, and I can't help thinking I'm crazy to think it, but still it's there in my head.
But then I read THIS. I don't think this is God's work. This bullsh-- is the result of greed, selfishness and irresonsibility of the big cheeses at Imagine. I'm so pissed I'm in tears. I can't believe that people can be so careless when it comes to others, children, and the pursuit of family. Brutal.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Waiting and Making Plans

Well, this is a sort of limbo period for all of us pre-referral folks. I know there is a lot of talk about taking over Imagine, but I don't know for certain that anything will really come of it. I'm very hopeful, so don't interpret this as me being Downer Debbie, but yeah. Who knows. I am curious though, if it does happen, what will the additional cost be? I mean, I'm not really expecting to get money back when I file a claim... well not much anyway, and so I figure I'll essentially be out the fifteen I've spent. So then what? Will I have to repay some? I mean, a company resurrected from bankruptcy will still have no money, am I wrong? So... yeah. I mean, I'm willing to pay extra especially when the option is losing fifteen. But how much will it cost, I wonder. I can't afford another fifteen... not even close!
A couple of potential positives, maybe, I don't really know. I would think that the order of referrals in a resurrected Imagine would be the same as when they went under, no? And since all the present inhabitants of the TH are being hustled out of there as soon as they can based on court and immigration, the latter of which is faster than normal, when/if Imagine restarts, that could mean a number of referrals right away. I'm trying to stay positive. If you feel like I'm grasping, point it out gently please. I'm a little sensitive right now.
If it doesn't go, I think I might not pursue adoption anymore. I really don't want to think it possible, but I just can't imagine it. I wouldn't be able to afford the international route again, and even though I would have probably gone through the Alberta government's Foster-to-Adopt program from the start, had I known how successful most placements are, I now have in my head a picture of my Ethiopian girl, and to replace her with a Caucasian or Aboriginal girl just feels wrong. It's not about race; it's about my expectations that I have long had for my family. I have imagined my girl for the last couple of years and it's too much to think of anyone else filling her shoes. I feel like, my girl is out there, somewhere, and she is meant to be with me. All the clothes and toys I have bought for my girl are for that someday-girl I'd imagined. I can't imagine giving them to anyone else.
So a couple of options lay ahead of me now:
1. If it is a go, and somehow, miraculously, this all still works out, than my life will continue as planned. I will live in this town I don't love, working at a job I don't love, enduring until my girl is home.
2. If it all falls apart, my life will come unpaused. I have put a hold on my life for a couple of years in anticipation of this adoption, in spite of advice from people commenting who said, "Don't do it!" and I will not do it anymore. If it doesn't go (my stomach flipped just thinking of it), then I will quit my job as soon as a missions position comes up. I have wanted to do missions for years, but have felt like life has gotten in the way. I've put it on the backburner for relationships, Jonah, this adoption, the idea that so many of us have that I need to store away like the ant, get a home, car, stable career, etc. before I can do what I'd love. So many people waiting for retirement to do what they love. Well, I'm not waiting 30 years! It's not going to happen. So either I start my missionary life in the next few months, or in a few years when my someday-girl is a little bigger. Either way, I'm done putting it off.
I'm brushing up on the Old Testament now, because even though I imagine I'll be teaching when I go, I'll want to be solid in my knowledge of scriptures and be able to defend my faith.
Life is good.
It will all work out one way or another.
Hoping and praying for the one way, but satisfied with the other.

Monday, July 20, 2009

What's the News? Fill me in!

I don't really know what's going on. I saw on Canada AM this morning that the Ontario government has agreed to step in and supervise the running of Imagine until all files are completed. Did I hear right? Is that right? And does that only include those who are waiting for court and Visas? Or is that also the lowly waiting-for-referral-folks like me who have been completely forgotten in this? That wasn't meant to sound bitter. I'm just trying to be hopeful not to get hopes up? Is that right? Somebody please fill me in on the news. I am so out of it. No idea.

Later... I can't find that news anywhere. Please someone, tell me I didn't dream it.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Wait. What???

Shocked. Nauseated. What else to say?

Wednesday, July 15, 2009


Okay, I guess I lied when I said I'd get pics up right away. But fear not... they are coming. I'm sure nobody's even caring, but you know, I don't want to seem like a liar.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Out of the Loop

So apparently I have been away far longer than I'd thought. What with finals, report cards and a flash-and-dash trip to the coast last week, time has been flying. In fact, I've been telling people as recently as last week that I am 7 months into the wait, when in fact last week I busted past the eight month mark. Yay me! So much to write about, but so little desire to sit behind a computer, seeing as I am on holidays. becuz i dont hav to teech im goin to tak a brak from rules of speling and gramar and watnot and just let mi brane turn of. o ya thats th gud stuf. actule thats even harder unthinin then thinkin so now im goin to stop. So, instead of writing, IF anyone is still checking in, I promise to post pictures of the most recent activity here at the H---- Family Household. I can only guarantee captions, but hey, a picture is worth a thousand words and that works for me. Besides, I love looking at other's pictureful posts, but rarely are mine that way. Soon. Like, give me a day to upload.
Happy Summer All!!!