The Check (and Dossier) is in the Mail!!!

Wooooooooo Hoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got it off in the mail today -- my paperwork to Imagine! I am so excited and feeling like, this is it! This is a big move! The check is in the mail, and I am getting closer! I can't stop using the exclamation point!
Everything except my one reference letter (come on Becky -- mail it already!) and my Notice of Assessment, which I can fax once I receive it. My friend Becky said she'd send the letter off tonight directly to the agency, and I should get my taxes back pretty quick now! So I don't think either of those things will hold me back.
Part of me feels like a huge weight has been lifted, because it's stressful to collect all of these parts of the dossier, and takes a lot of time and work. But I kind of feel at the same time, that an even heavier weight has just been laid on me. Because this is it. This is the real deal. I'm in it. I'm mere weeks from being officially waiting. I have a baby on the way. I am, for all intents and purposes, pregnant. Well, as pregnant as I can be with an empty womb. But that doesn't even matter. My heart is swelling so much, that there's no more room in my torso anyway! Baby on the way!!! So excited.
Jonah and I have started praying about his little sister when I tuck him into bed at night. I know the wait is a bit unpredictable, but moms tell their kids when they have a sibling on the way, and so we talk about how she's growing up in her other mummy's belly, and we pray that they are healthy and safe and blessed. I know that probably some women who give us their little ones feel like they are being left behind, maybe even forgotten to a point. But I already love this woman. I already want great things for her. The best that life has to offer. And any role that I would be allowed to play in that would make me thankful. I want my girl to know that both sides of her family are doing okay.
Bliss. That's the only word for how I'm feeling. Elated (okay, I guess two words can describe it). And on the brink of tears with anticipation and excitement. I'm one step closer to my girl.